About life.

I'm slowly realizing something. I really am reckless. Whether I want to admit that or not, I definitely am. And this is not just judging by recent behaviour, I have always been like that.. It's just that the reckless side is showing up now more often than before...

I don't even know whether that's a good thing or bad thing ha. I mean my recklessness might..what? get me killed someday? =P Ha. No.. I don't think so.

But i'm so certain many people would disapprove of reckless behaviour.

And i understand what they mean too. They're concerned.

But honestly, I can't seem to help it. I like being reckless.. It kind of relieves me, makes me feel happy inside.

Life has been multi coloured off late. So, shades of grey, white, absolute black and others spring up every now and then. I'm not looking forward to any sort of leave because I HATE being idle. It only acts like fuel for stupid thoughts to rise up. But hopefully, i'll take up an old activity again or work on new hobbies this time around. Note to self: Idle+ you= Bad combination.

Hmm...I have exams coming up real soon. Bleh.

I keep getting the feeling I need to do something. Many things actually.Considering I've had a super busy schedule recently, I'm surprised I get the time to feel something like that at all. =P

Yesterday night was so awful. Kept waking up every now and then. Not fun. Considering I had an early class today.

However, I must add... Life has brought me a few good things too in the past few days. And boy, I'm grateful! =)

Ah i should get back to pending stuff for now. Until next time then..

Parting shot: " What rocks more? Woo hoo or yay? Or wait. Cheers?"
"You're mad."
*Blush blush*

=P

Stay.

Oh baby,
I need you so.
I am not always right,
I make mistakes.
I am not always sane,
I tend to get lost somewhere along the road.

But,
As long as you're with me,
It gets easier,
I know I'll find the strength to hold on.
When everything seems bleak,
And i fall, defeated,
I know you'll pull me up.

Oh baby,
It's hard I know.
But please don't go,
Don't leave me here,
Stay with me,
I need you so.

If they ask me to define love,
your face would come to my mind,
If they ask me for proof of unconditional love,
I would smile inside, knowing it was you all along,
So i would just have to show them you,
And they'd know I'm right.

Parting shot: " Every place I go..I think of you..
Every song I sing, I'll sing for you,
When I come back, I'll bring your wedding ring...
So kiss me and smile for me,
tell me that you'll wait for me,
Hold me like you'll never let me go.."

Searching..

And when you feel like the only things which can comprehend you,
Are the waves crashing against those rocks.
And when you're surrounded by people,
And yet, you feel so lost, so alone,
What do you do?

When you're struggling so hard that you're left gasping for breath,
Fighting, fighting,fighting.

Will you hold on?
If not for you, then for someone else,
If not for your own sanity but then, for someone Else's smile,
Will you refuse to leave this fight?



Parting shot: " Not all those who wander are lost.."

Fighting, living, dreaming, hoping and wishing...

Assignments, projects, work, work,work...

Not a pretty situation haha. =P

Ok so I have been swamped with all of the above. And it's not going to get any better until the end of September.... Though it sure rocks that being busy means once u get to bed, you pass out in seconds. No dreamless sleep though... Sigh. =)

I don't know about life. It's bittersweet really....That's all I can figure.

I have been unconsciously building dreams inside my head...
Woah.
*Cha ching*
The "ooh so you got it!" moment! =P

Ok. That sounds mad, I think. =D

So yeah. I really hope I can fulfill those dreams. There are some things I really want to do in the next five years. And definitely before I kick the bucket.

Hmm... oh. another 'cha ching!' moment: ;)

It hit me awhile ago how difficult it is to be a director. The vision you see...to create that same vision on- stage or on-screen with some one else is SO tough! To make them see what you see, to make them understand.. It's tougher than you'd think it would be.

I know now because of a play I'm a part of in college. =P

That's one of my dreams. Theatre... There's just something beautiful about it. I want to try it, want to give it a shot.

I'm really excited about a theatre fest which I have in college tomorrow. Looking forward to catching up on a few awesome acts and fillers, of course! =D

Did i mention I've had a couple of crazy days recently? Ok, unexpected mad stuff. =D One involved me walking part of the distance (pretty long though) home alone from the station pretty late at night with no one really knowing what I was up to. It was great fun! I had music and night lights and I'd forgotten how awesome it is to take long walks on your own some times. Haven't done that since MONTHS!
The other one involved me making friends with someone, who was in distress like I was. haha! That was so funny! We were stranded on an unknown station far away from home and helped each other figure out a way to get home. =)
Oh there were others like me tripping and falling hard, getting muck on my clothes early in the morning, just on the day of a presentation. Haha. =P

And oh! Contemporary dancing....ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D

Ok. Need to get back to work *scowls and then ruins it by smiling !* =P

Parting shot: " Sometimes, I'm afraid when you go,
Sometimes, I'm afraid when you come home...
Underneath it all,
I think I'm afraid when there is nothing at all...."

Not just a four letter word.

They asked me to define love.
I smiled.
You know you're in love when,
Not having that person next to you hurts every second,
Knowing they're sad makes you go crazy,
You feel closer to heaven than ever before, when you're with them...
You know you're in love,
When you know you care more about them than anything else,
When you would gladly give yourself up,
If it meant it would get back their smile.
You feel what you feel unconditionally,
You don't want anything else out of life...
You know you're in love.

"I'll be in every beat of your heart, When you face the unknown...."

Parting shot: "Three words..."