"I want to lie here,look at the stars until i fall asleep."

I just need to feel the sky around me.


Oh,above me.

I want to fall asleep smiling.

I know,I know.

need to think happy thoughts.

Ha,I just noticed i've got so many sad songs on my playlist.

Hmm.

parting shot: "i'll close my eyes and wish,wish you were here."

A little lost.

Well,that's life,eh?








"You gotta be patient.
You've got to wait.
Your sunshine's not far,
You'll reach there soon enough."

Parting shot: "I miss you so much,it hurts."

M.

I miss you so much.

Parting shot: "I love you."

Forgive me.

I'm sorry.
I was never right,
I never meant to hurt you.
I was always a mess,
Why did I have to drag you in it?

I shouldn't let you suffer,
I'm sorry.

I can't stand I put you in pain,
I wish I could steal all that pain,
Take it as my own.

You'll never be alone,
I'll always be hanging around you,
Missing you,
Thinking about you,
Loving you.

I'm an idiot.

WHY do i have to put others in pain just because i'm in pain?

I have absolutely NO RIGHT to do that.

I'm a stupid,selfish person.

I deserve to suffer.

I deserve to feel pain.

I get that.

But to cause someone else my pain?

I suck big time.

I'm sorry.

I kind of wish i just stop existing.

I'm so useless.

And i'm not trying to gain sympathy.

I don't deserve it.

am on a Self hating spree.

Parting shot: "I'm not worth it."

Uhhhhhh...

I want some sort of time out.

From everything.

I want to forget black and white for awhile.

:(

Though I definitely feel better,my confusion is clouding up inside me.

Hmm.

Parting shot: "Don't resent me,when you're feeling empty,keep me in your memory,leave out all the rest,leave out all the rest."

Uhh restless?

I'm feeling that right now.

All jumpy.

Like something's not right.

Like i need to do do something.

AH MAN!

I want to feel at peace :(

Tra la la peace,oh peace,
i'm looking for you,
find me some peace,
Tra la la la.

:D

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHA!

Smile!

It's evident I've gone insane.

*Fifteen grins*

See?

Told ya!

Parting shot: "Tra la la,oh peace,find me peace."
"Can I pull your cheeks?" :P

Hmm.

Too many emotions flying inside me.

can I hit a brick wall again? :P

Actually no,that wasn't cool at all.

Wouldn't want to experience it again.

I'm talking stupid.

Apologies :)

you know,

sometimes,

all i want to do is tuck away my memories somewhere.

and i want to go to a place entirely different where no one knows me and live a different life.

Why?

I just feel I should do it.

PON AND ZI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!YAY! :P
Parting shot:" :) you complete me."

Never Alone.

If you feel the pain pulling you down,
The tears blinding you,
Nothing making sense,
You're trying to figure out a way to find some light.
Don't worry,
I'll always stand by your side,
I'll never be too far away.
If I can't take the pain away,
I'll at least listen when you need to talk,
I'll share your pain,
I'll try my best,
To get that smile back on your face.

Parting shot: Sudden inspiration. :) Had to write this down.
"You'll always have me to hold onto."

=)

Hahahahahahaha.

DID NOT HAVE THAT TEST TODAY!

OH YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

=P

Today's lecture was funny.

Because none of us actually paid attention.

We played games at the back of the class :P

For a change :D

Poor teacher though :P

Oh looks like i need to go but i'll be back. :D

Parting shot:"YAY!Angels exist! :D Oye,you know i mean you!" =)

Again.

I will walk on the street,
My eyes searching.
I will feel a little lost,
Until i see you.
You will bring a smile back to my face.
Just knowing you're somewhere,
Will make me feel I'm safe.
Just your thoughts,
will give me beautiful dreams.
Just your love,
Will want me to believe,
Life is beautiful.

Parting shot: "I'm yours.forever." :)

I don't know what's going on with me.

Just not feeling very great.

Why?
I don't know.

Not upset or something,

more like...lost.

Anyway,

I should get going.

Parting shot: "Hug me tight,tell me what I need to hear.
you're the best,you know."

Something.

Every place I go,
I think of you.
Every song I'll sing,

I'll sing for you.

Parting shot: ":) So kiss me and smile for me..."

:D Blahahahaha :P

Hello world :)

Guess what :P

I finally figured out the song i had in my head.

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

So today started on a good note.

You know something i've noticed,

The really talented RJs are so good!

I mean,the way they talk on air,

the spontaneous smile which comes up every now and then in their voice,

Crazy! :)

I so want to try that once! :)

Parting shot: "gerry and holly,you guys are perfect! :)"

( P.S.I love you :D)

Beautiful.

:D

Ok.

I know i'm acting funny.

:P

But can't help it.

I am going through so many emotions at once.

It's crazy man :D

Anyway, I need to download a few songs.

I'll get going now. :)

Parting shot:"You know you're the most beautiful,the most perfect,the most amazing.. :D"

I'm my worst enemy.

This is a fact.

I plunge into emptiness because of my own thoughts and stupidity.

Sometimes,

everything feels...so wrong.

And then,you look back to the the times when you were completely happy and you feel tears welling up inside you.

I hate myself sometimes.

Gosh,this is getting sad.

Outta here before I start talking even more negative stuff.

Parting shot: "Hmm.I don't know.seriously."

Volfswagonstein.

:D

Ok.

I'm on a self proclaimed overdose of madness today.

So,

cool! :D

My mini vacation gets over today.

Bah!

I really really need to start on a few things I HAVE to do.

Note to self: Start..TODAY!

I need to start video-taping more stuff. Really.

Peace.

Everyone,war is not the way to go.

What do you think?

War starts off a chain of more destructive,painful events.

Anyway,I'll sign off for the time being.

Parting shot: "Crazy is the new cool habit!" :D

This one's for you. :)

I'm so lucky you walked into my life,
You give me a reason to smile,
You make feel loved.
You make me feel so good.
Thank you,
For being the wonderful person you are.
I'm grateful,
That you're around.
I love you,
And want to continue,
until the end.
I want to die in your arms,
Happy,
Content,
At peace.
I can't let you go,
I'd crumble,
And I need you to know,
You're my best friend,my love,
My reason.
I love you,
And I want to make sure,
I'm by your side when you need someone to understand your pain,
I'll always listen,
Try my best,
To steal your pain,
To watch you smile,
To help you believe,
Everything's gonna be allright.
We're gonna be fine.
Love you,
Until the very end.
:)

Parting shot: "You & Me,we're amazing together. :) "

Road to Nowhere.

And we're walking together,
finally,
laughing,smiling,
looking at each other,
feeling like nothing could steal this moment,
nothing could take this,
away from us.
We're on the road to nowhere tonight,
And nothing's gonna stop us,
from reaching our destination.

We're just gonna live in this moment,
Stare into each other's eyes,
talk,talk,talk.

This is the best thing ever,
The sky stretching out above us,
The stars smiling,
The moon looking bright.
The world looking less grumpy,
Tonight.

We're gonna enjoy ourselves,
Get wasted,
Fool around,
Talk aloud.

Oh yeah,
we're on the road to nowhere tonight,
finding true happiness along the way.
And nothing's gonna stop us,
from reaching our destination.

PS: I seriously don't know what this poem means :P But I wrote it anyway.Hope you like it.

Parting shot: " We're here,world." :)

"...And I Don't Want To Miss A Thing."

I love that song.

LOVE it. :)

Thank you Aerosmith! :D

Well today morning,I'm actually feeling allright :P Which is saying a lot cause I don't like mornings one bit.

Not a morning person :P

I hope today turns out to be a great day :)

For me and whoever ends up reading this. :D

I want to laugh till my stomach hurts :P and till I have tears in my eyes! :D

I did that recently and Man! So much fun. :D

I need to do a few things I've always wanted to do.

And i want to stop post poning them.

Which reminds me of another very important thing. :D

Anyway, I wonder whether the world really is gonna end in 2012.

If yes, I'll just shrug.

Rather than worry about the world ending, I'd want to enjoy the time I have left.

Well,that's all for now. :)

Parting shot: " I still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing." :)

Oh yeah.yeah.yeah. :P

I don't know,feeling a little tipsy.

Funny cause it's not like i downed alcohol or something :P
I have a mini headache :P

Whatever that means! :D

Well.

Life is...going on. :P

Still,I'm fine so that's good :)


Well,i don't have much to say really .

But still, I felt like writing.

Crazy, I tell you. :P

I guess I'll come back later :)

Parting shot : " :) I love love!"

beautiful you!

Sometimes,
in life,
we find amazing people.
They give us a reason to live,
To laugh,to smile.

You connect so well,
You are left speechless.

You feel like your
dreams are finally coming true. :)

You love them,that one amazing person.

you want to see that person smile,
you want them to know,
how much they mean to you.

You finally know what love is.

true love.

:)

Parting shot: "You give me my smile :) "

All wrong inside me.

La la land.

I've no idea what kind of mood swings I encounter these days.

Got absolutely zero control over my moods.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Not enjoying this at all.

Imagine this,

I get annoyed.

And I drown myself.

So STUPID!

:P

Sorry.

I'm in a very pathetic mood.

Talking crap.

I don't even feel like stopping.

Cause then I'll be thinking crap.

Or doing crap.

See?

I've gone crazy.

What is wrong with me?

I think I know.

But well.

Ok,trying to get back into sensible mode now.

I apologize for the silliness up there.

Just ignore it allright? Thanks

Ok.

I want to make a nice movie and get an opinion about it from people.

That sounds amateurish ha.

Like this is the "perfect line" that one is supposed to say.

I think I' m still very much out of range of reason,the sensible mode is still out of reach.

WHAT is going on inside me?

I've got to stop this.

SIGH.

I'm just being silly yeah.
Parting shot : "Make hay while the sun shines dude!"

It's you,happiness.

Say you love me,
Say you miss me.
I'm in pain,
My eyes are red from crying,
My voice is a low echo inside me,
I'm a mess,
Don't you see?

Say everything's gonna be allright,
Hug me and reasssure me,
Please,I need you,
I need you if I'm gonna hold on,
I need your shoulder to cry on,
I need you so much.

I'm being sucked by the void,
Crying silent tears,
Wishing,hoping,crying.
Asking why?
Wondering whether things will ever be allright,
Whether my world will be a happy one again,
Whether I'll make it through this.

I know I'm selfish,
But I'm blinded by the pain,
I don't know what to do anymore.

So,
will you say i'm gonna be okay?
will you hold me and hug me tight?
will you give me hope tonight?

Parting shot:"Fingers crossed."

I'm lost without you.

So afraid,so uncertain.
So lost.

:( Not much left to say,eh?

Parting shot:" I'm gonna find you.I've got to find you."

A little something for anyone who has ever been in love.

:-)

baby, you're like a dream I get to see with my eyes wide open,

baby,you make me feel loved,

make me smile when it seems impossible,

make me feel so good,

I get to breathe in the fresh scent of life,

Only because of you.

I say corny things trying to express how much you rock,

But then I NEED you to know,

You mean SO MUCH to me,

More than I can ever say in words.

More than I can write up.

You're my hope,

What would I do without you?

I want to hold onto you,my treasure,forever. :)

lonesome eyes.

Let me go somewhere far away,
Somewhere I can breathe at ease,
Let me take a breather,
Just this once,
Let me feel pure happiness again.
I need this so much,
I want to do this,
Now,
Please.
I'm just exhausted,
Tired.
I'm not wrong,am I?
I need to be led back onto the right track,
I'm lost,
My eyes staring into a world far away.
If this doesn't make any sense,
I would just give you a bitter smile,
Cause I knew it along.
Not everyone's got to understand,
Not everyone's got to care.
I'll just hang on till I can,
And hope for a better life,
A better tomorrow.

Parting shot: "Nothing much left to say,I guess."

gOOFY!!!!!!!!! :P

Haha..

Oh what a way to start a post.

Laughter!!!!!!!!! :P

I love cartoons!

Loved them as a kid,love them even now! :D

They present a lighter view on life.

Which is refreshing and FUN! :D

Making cartoons is an awesome talent...Requires great skill and imagination! :)

Here's to all the people who were ever associated with making cartoons:

PEOPLE,YOU'RE AWESOME! :)

Parting shot: "Roarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! :P"

I don't know.

It's all downhill from here,isn't it?

Rockstars.

I've known quite a few rockstars in my life.

Well,ok.

Not,"rockstars" rockstars but they are no less in my eyes :)

They rock,truly!

I know this sounds so corny :D

But well,they make me smile when I need it.

They drop in a "HOW ARE YOU? " every now and then :)

They text message me to ask me whether I'm gonna be online :)

They hug me when I need it.

They might not have met me for long,yet they care so much :)

Rockstars ,man! :D

Parting shot: "I forgot to put this in the previous post.Can you believe this? I forgot the PARTING SHOT!" :D

PS:Sorry.kind of lost it today :P :)

Hey you.

I wish you were here,
Here with me.
I'd be so happy,
Smile a big smile.

Hug you,
Feel happier than what I've felt in a long time.

I really like you,
You're like a puzzle which fits my pieces perfectly,
I know that was a lame line,
But well :)

I'm glad I know you,
You give me a reason to look forward to a new day.

Does that sound like too much?
Maybe it does.

But,
YOU,
you're a miracle,
My angel.

PS:Your balloon's not gonna burst! :P

Here I am.

You're feeling lost again?
Need someone to stand by your side,
Support you every step of the way?
When you looked,
you didn't see anyone?
Don't worry anymore.
Don't be lonely,
Cause you're gonna be all right,
Here I am,
To help you out.
To hug you,
To make things better.
I'm not leaving,
I promise.

Lost somewhere along the line.

I ran,
Catching my breath,
Gasping for air,
Looking out at the world.
Looking out at my life,
Speeding past.
I reached out to touch,
But I somehow missed every time.
I looked out,
And caught sight of a reason,
To not give up.
Simply,
To see what life would be,
To give everything a chance,
To hold on.

So yeah.

Life's uphill and downhill.
I'm happy one hour and after some time,I'm gloomy.
Funny!

So,life's become busy now.Reaching college is something. Bus,train and then rickshaw and finally,college.

That's a little annoying.

Well,people have it much more harder than I do. I know.

Tang,sorry for not updating.I'll be better from now on.

So,I've not read a good book since...wait.How long has it been? Need to read something fun.

Let's all smile at the screen.For no reason in particular! :P :)

I want a pup! Really.

Today's Monday and...blah :P AT least,the day's almost over so that's good.

I need to put more songs on my computer.High time I update the playlist. Note to self!

I want tomorrow to be a good day.Well,every day actually :)

My inbox is full. I'll have to sit down and delete old text messages on my phone..sigh.Not fun.

I don't even know what to talk about :D

I'm trying to define love in my head.Like seriously :)

I missed this place.

Well, I'll come back and write in here soon. :)

Parting shot: " All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players;
They have their exits and their entrances,
And one man in his time plays many parts,
His acts being seven ages."
-Shakespeare

So I don't know.

Well,I've been having good and bad days.So yeah life's hmm..... eventful?
Sometimes,I wonder whether I'm right wherever I am, I just don't know.
I've been sleeping like a log these days whenever I get the chance so that's cool :D
I really want to go out on a vacation.Really.
I want to hear a good joke right now.And laugh aloud.
I want to.....uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I want too much :)

Projects on a regular basis and presentations and assignments can make a person go crazy. Seriously.

I want to hug something soft. I want to feel that comfort.

I want to walk on a beautiful promenade in the evening and feel happy.

Parting shot: Too many wants,right?

Yeehah!

You know what.
I just realized this.
I want to go to a countryside place for a few days on holiday soon.

Which is kind of dificult since college has started.

:(

Here is a list of things I want to do soon:
1.Be a little more positive each day.

2.Visit a different city.

3.Talk to a stranger like I've known him since years.

4.Get drunk :)

5.Watch a favorite movie.

6.Meet old friends.

7.Smile longer.

8.Get better with playing my guitar.

9.Take this list seriously.

College started last week. It's not bad,the course is kind of interesting.I guess it'll get more interesting from now on. :)

I miss blogger.

Parting shot: "I'll be back soon.

MJ,rest in peace.Your song Ben really is remarkable.The tune is magic.

You're gone and the world's lost a lot."

And your time's now.

Too often,
we wait for tomorrow,
To say what we've been wanting to say.
To do what we've been planning to do,
we don't do it now,
oh no,
we wait.

And I'm not much better.I do the same.I wait,postponing millions of chores.Not just chores,other things too.
Well,anyway.
See,the thing is,
what we have now,
we can do something with it.
We can shape our present,
and act.

What was that? Oh yeah,
Live.Now. :)

In other news,
have you hugged someone today?

If not,you know what you have to do.

Parting shot:"Rise up."

Let's rant now,shall we?

So.
It's been a million years since I ranted here.
:(
If you sit me down in a dark room with a lone chair & a single light bulb,
and ask me,

"Is Life good?"

I'll smile.


No.

Not sarcastic.

But maybe, would want to know,

why,

did you bother,

to ask?

Such a complex question.

In an age,

where no one has that much free time.

When I look at nature's beauty,

at blue water,

feel snow.

I can say,

God's a marvelous visionary.

For sure.

(not)Parting shot:":) A smile a day,brightens up someone else's day."

Can you take me higher?

You know,
If there really is a heaven,I wonder...
What it's like.
Because,have you ever realized,
that everyone's idea of heaven,
A Perfect place,
Is different?

I might want lots of music.
Someone else might want lots of junk food.
You might want blue skies.

So,

Perfect heaven is...? :)

Seriously,

If there is heaven,

Creed have got it right.

Can you take me higher?
To a place where blind men see?
Can you take me higher?
To a place with golden gates?

Now,
That is....
Perfect.

Parting shot:"Soulmate,oh my soulmate,where art thee?" :)

Your lovely canvas.

Life's your canvas,
You paint whatever you want,
Paint your imagination,
Your dreams,
Your hopes,
Your misery,
Your happy hours,
Paint hard.
Cos you might have just this chance,
To let your heart out,
To live,
To have your breath taken away.
To feel life.

Parting shot:"Starry me,I'm still looking at the night sky."

When I'm down...

When I'm down,
I feel like things are absolutely humdrum,
I can't make sense of it,
I feel lost,
Struggling to get out of the dizzying maze,
Someone tells me,
Know this,my friend,
You're not alone,
You need a helping hand?
It's here,
You'll be fine,
If you hang on,
Smiling whenever you can,
You'll be fine.
Just hope,
Stay afloat,
Don't go under,
You'll be fine.

Parting shot: "Where there is a will,dude,there is a way," :)

Yes.

uh...

?????

I feel...stupid.

eek.

I just saw Jerry Mcguire on TV.

No,it's not related to me feeling stupid.

Nice movie though.

The kid was pretty cool.

He was the same guy who played Stuart's brother in Stuart Little.

Ha, I could say something better.

I don't know what I want to say though.

This is not going places.

Well....... *Frown*

Parting shot: "Smile.... thank you very much....... it's a nice thing to do."

Breathing.

So,

You know what I really feel like doing right now?

I want to just go take off by myself,

I want to see the never ending stretch of blue sky before me,

I want wind to blow on my face,

I want to walk on soft grass,

I want to capture what I see,

Whatever I like,

What makes me smile.

I want to breathe,

Happily.

Now that's not bad,is it?

I really wonder why we don't do things we want to do.

Even the most normal things.

Er,

I'm not having great insights right now,this moment.

Can you think of some answers?

Parting shot:" If you wake up tomorrow morning, stare at the mirror for one second, find that you aren't yourself anymore,

Would you

Slap yourself?

Scream?

Live someone else's life?

Yawn?

Say gah thrice?"

We don't give up that easily, no,we don't!

So,

you put truck loads of pressure,

you pile it up,

You throw it at us,

But guess what,

WE grin in response to your mind-boggling thought,

We duck,

We have our leisure anyway,

We laze around,

While you stare at us, red-faced and basically,

Disappointed.

Now if you're going to ask me what that was,

The simple thing is that,

I Don't know! :P

Parting shot: "You can't deny laughter; when it comes, it plops down in your favorite chair and stays as long as it wants."

- --Stephen King from Hearts in Atlantis.

Heart And Smile.

Watch me smile,
Let me feel bliss in your arms,
Watch me smile,baby,
For you.
Watch me smile.








How have you been? :)

Oh and since I never wished before,

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :P


I really hope the new year turns out great for all of you! :)

Happy 2009! :D


"Let's hope,

For a few more smiles this new year.

For a few more dreams come true,

For a few more contented sighs,

For a few more happy hours.

For living a few more lives."

Parting shot: "Your happy heart, my smile."